There I go, making ANOTHER mistake! Seems that I can’t do anything right. I mean, try as hard as I might, I’m still not good enough. I don’t know if I could be considered clinically depressed, but I’m dealing with depression. Oh, ahh, not supposed to admit that am I. In our society it’s ok to have a stomach ache, a headache, even a heartache. But no one admits when they have a mental ache……… aka depression. Well, I’m admitting it cause………well, what else can go wrong. I’m frustrated, aggravated, and just down in the dumps. Hey, I know, I know, it could be worse, but today, in my mind it’s bad.

I’m struggling with, of all things, the pressure I’m putting on myself. Hey, I don’t intend to be perfect, but can I at least stay in line when I cut the boards. My project today is so simple. Build a bird house. Can’t find the nails, can’t cut a board straight. When I nailed the boards together, one of them split. I mean what’s the use right?

Whoa, I hear what you’re thinking. “Toughen up Danny boy,…… it can’t be that bad.” “Get it together, son”. “Hey, you just need to get better, bro”. Probably the best thinking I’m hearing is this one………….. “Why don’t ya just give it up, cause you’re no good.”

Hey, you guys out there think I’m always positive and things are going great with me right? Well, here’s a news flash………..you ready?………….. Dan, the wilderness preacher, sometimes gets depressed. Yep, I personally deal with the monster called “you’re not good enough”. Sorry to make you feel uncomfortable right now, but odds are, you yourself have to fight the “you’re not good enough” monster yourself. What can we do?

As disappointed as I am in my birdhouse, I go ahead and hang it on a pole.

See, a couple hours earlier, a pair of mountain bluebirds were sitting on the light line, chirping and singing away. They were “telling” me, that they were looking for a place to nest this year. That’s what made me want to build a bird house, and build it right now!

All I can see though are mistakes, mistakes, and more mistakes. That is the most pathetic, most “terribleist”, most worsest, whatever………… it’s the most depressing looking birdhouse I’ve ever ……. wait…………………………………………………………………………………

Then it happened. Within 5 minutes of me putting up my poor, pitiful creation of a bird house,….. guess what? Both the male and female bluebirds were going in and out of the house. They were singing and chirping and “telling” me that they LOVED IT!!

Galatians 2:16 NIV know that a person is not justified by the works of the law, but by faith in Christ Jesus. So we too have put our faith in Jesus Christ that we may be justified by faith in Christ and not by the works…….

Look at it this way. I was depressed because of how my “works” had caused my birdhouse to look so bad. But, and this is important……… I had FAITH that the bluebirds would come and live in my house. Enough faith to actually hang the birdhouse up even with all the “not good enoughs” within the works and construction.

Funny how a bluebird “of happiness” can make the monster of “you’re not good enough” go away. It’s hard to focus on all my mistakes, when that chirpy, singing, happy little bluebird has decided to come into my birdhouse…….. and into my life.

I don’t mean to belittle the subject of depression. Some people have to fight it and have even had a doctor tell them they are clinically depressed. Others, like me, get a good dose of it from just living in this world, dealing with frustrations, and all those “you’re not good enough” thoughts.

But there is a peace beyond understanding that comes from the fact that Jesus wants to come into our lives…… even with all our mistakes. We just have to make the decision to put our FAITH in Jesus.

Funny thing too is this. When He decides to move into our birdhouse/heart, our focus isn’t so much on our mistakes as it is on HIM.

I find a joy in my heart that the bluebird has made his home in my birdhouse. An even more amazing joy I have found by having Jesus make His home in my heart!!

What’s this got to do with you? Why not put your own birdhouse in your yard. Enjoy! Why not offer your own life to Jesus, let Him come in, focus on Him and not yourself. Live in Joy!

“Lord, would you help us deal with the monster of “you’re not good enough”. Would You live in our lives and help us see as You see! To you we give the honor and glory.”

See Ya! Dan Ainsworth wilderness preacher